Here’s the Dark Side of Fitness You Never Knew

by | Mar 27, 2022

When I tell my story, I often share the insecurities I was riddled with at 250 lbs.

The lost identity. The lack of confidence. Not wanting to be seen by anyone for fear of what comments they would make.

As I was looking back at old photos … I found a bunch of pictures at my heaviest.

And ONE single picture at my lightest.

The reason: I was even more insecure at 160 than I was at 250.

Not to mention, the 160 lb. me had the worst relationship with food and the worst relationship with my body.

I needed to make a mindset shift.

When I was 250 I set this arbitrary goal of wanting to get below 200.

I would reach it. Rebound. Reach it. Rebound. Reach it. Rebound.

Until I decided enough was enough (not in a good way).

I committed to only eating “clean” as a “lifestyle” change.

200, 190, 180, 170, 160 … It was never good enough.

I would look in the mirror at 160 and pick myself apart (hence, no photos were taken).

Here’s the kicker … I would’ve kept going to 150 but I physically couldn’t get there.

So, what does one do when they’re struggling with orthorexia, body image issues, and trying to hate themselves leaner but their body won’t budge??

They rebel.

At least that’s what I did.

Pretty sure I gained 40 lbs. in about 6 months.

I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I was also sick of feeling inadequate.

Because of my personality, I became obsessed with education around fitness and nutrition.

It certainly wasn’t all smooth sailing from there.

As recently as last year I had to get over the mental roadblock of gaining weight.

I’m not sure those old thoughts will ever completely go away. I’m just better equipped to handle them now.

I can just imagine telling that 160 lb. dude that we’re going to be happiest sitting 30 lbs. heavier.

One of the biggest mindset shifts I had to make was truly connecting to the intrinsic motivators vs. external validation.

Fitness enhances my life and carries over into everything else that I do.

It shows me constantly that I can challenge myself, do hard things, and grow as a result.

Not everyone needs the vehicle of fitness and nutrition to figure that out (because everyone has their own path).

But it’s a damn powerful tool.

And, just like any powerful tool, with improper application, it can be damaging AF.

I witnessed and experienced both sides.

Which is why I will forever preach a top-down approach.

Mindset first. Physical results as a side effect.

It’s what I wish I had back then.

And now, we’ve been able to pay it forward to thousands of individuals.

A responsibility that we don’t take lightly.

The reality is this … you don’t need to be fixed. You are not broken.

However, you may CHOOSE to want to grow and evolve.

You may want to see what else you’re capable of and what more you can accomplish.

You may decide that the pursuit of better health and fitness is a worthy endeavor.

Totally valid one way or the other.

Our objective at POP is not to tell you what to do or even suggest what you “should” be doing.

Our objective is to simply help you become more self aware to better inform your own behaviors and decisions.

That’s it in a nut shell.

We’re not for everybody and we certainly don’t claim to be.

But we know how powerful our approach is for those who are ready to make that choice.

Whenever that may be (if ever) .. we’ve got your back.

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